Saturday, February 7, 2009
excerpt from new moon, by stefanie meyer.
"where you are is the right place for me"
"im no good for you, bella"
"dont be ridiculous," i wanted to sound angry, but it sounded like i was begging. "you're the very best part of my life"
"my world is not for you," he said grimly.
....
"bella, i dont want you to come with me." he spoke the words slowsly and precisely, his cold eyes on my face, watching as i absorbed what he was really saying.
there was a pause as i repeated the words in my head a few times, sifting through them for their real intent.
"you...dont...want me?" i tried the words, confused by the way they sounded, placed in that order.
"no."
i stared, uncomprehendingly, into his eyes. he stared back without apology. his eyes were like topaz-- hard and clear and very deep. i felt like i could see into them for miles and miles, yet nowhere in their bottomless depths could i see a contradiction to the word he's just spoken.
"well, that changes things." i was surprised by how calm and reasonable my voice sounded. it must be because i was so numb. i couldnt realize what he was telling me. it didnt make any sense.
he looked away into the trees as he spoke again. "of course ill always love you... in a way. but what happened the other night made me realize its time for a change. because im... tired of pretending to be something im not, bella. i am not human." he looked back, and the icy planes of his perfect face were not human. " ive let this go on for much too long, and im sorry for that."
"dont." my voice was just a whisper now; awareness was beginning to seep through me, trickling like acid through my veins. "dont do this."
he started at me, and u could see from his eyes that my words were far too late. he already had.
" you're not good for me, bella" he turned his earlier words around, and so i had no argument. how well i knew that i wasnt good enough for him.
i opened my mouth to say something, and then closed it again. he waited patiently, his face wiped clean of all emotion. i tried again.
if..thats what you want."
he nodded once.
....
it will be as if i never existed, he promised me.
---------------------
this part never fails to make me cry.
hahaha, goshhhh, ive slept soo much today, but im still so tired.
haha, tuition tomorrow, at 7am.
yeah, wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i know.
im current very worried about something.
lets see if you can guess.
i have 3bruises that appeared out of no where,
im feeling fatigued, weak and tired.
i have headaches sometimes
recently, i found it difficult to swallow.
hahah maybe its something, maybe its nothing (:
bye noww
"so what if nothing comes out of this? will you be sad?"
"nope, ill just be disappointed."
"disappointed? why not sad?"
"because life often turns out this way."
"where you are is the right place for me"
"im no good for you, bella"
"dont be ridiculous," i wanted to sound angry, but it sounded like i was begging. "you're the very best part of my life"
"my world is not for you," he said grimly.
....
"bella, i dont want you to come with me." he spoke the words slowsly and precisely, his cold eyes on my face, watching as i absorbed what he was really saying.
there was a pause as i repeated the words in my head a few times, sifting through them for their real intent.
"you...dont...want me?" i tried the words, confused by the way they sounded, placed in that order.
"no."
i stared, uncomprehendingly, into his eyes. he stared back without apology. his eyes were like topaz-- hard and clear and very deep. i felt like i could see into them for miles and miles, yet nowhere in their bottomless depths could i see a contradiction to the word he's just spoken.
"well, that changes things." i was surprised by how calm and reasonable my voice sounded. it must be because i was so numb. i couldnt realize what he was telling me. it didnt make any sense.
he looked away into the trees as he spoke again. "of course ill always love you... in a way. but what happened the other night made me realize its time for a change. because im... tired of pretending to be something im not, bella. i am not human." he looked back, and the icy planes of his perfect face were not human. " ive let this go on for much too long, and im sorry for that."
"dont." my voice was just a whisper now; awareness was beginning to seep through me, trickling like acid through my veins. "dont do this."
he started at me, and u could see from his eyes that my words were far too late. he already had.
" you're not good for me, bella" he turned his earlier words around, and so i had no argument. how well i knew that i wasnt good enough for him.
i opened my mouth to say something, and then closed it again. he waited patiently, his face wiped clean of all emotion. i tried again.
if..thats what you want."
he nodded once.
....
it will be as if i never existed, he promised me.
---------------------
this part never fails to make me cry.
hahaha, goshhhh, ive slept soo much today, but im still so tired.
haha, tuition tomorrow, at 7am.
yeah, wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i know.
im current very worried about something.
lets see if you can guess.
i have 3bruises that appeared out of no where,
im feeling fatigued, weak and tired.
i have headaches sometimes
recently, i found it difficult to swallow.
hahah maybe its something, maybe its nothing (:
bye noww
"so what if nothing comes out of this? will you be sad?"
"nope, ill just be disappointed."
"disappointed? why not sad?"
"because life often turns out this way."
# posted by Fl. : 6:46 AM
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