life, FLORENCEified

hahahaah,
okay so random,
BUT,
I LOVE EDWARD!
ahhhh!
hahahahaha, obsession:D
come, let me share the joy of newmoon(:

"Exactly. But i never imagines it would be so easy to do! I thought it would be next to impossibl - that you would be so sure of the truth that i would have to lie through my teeth for hours even to plant the seed of doubt in your head. I lied, and I'm so sorry - sorry because i hurt you, sorty because it was a worthless effort. Sorry that i couldnt protect you from who i am, I lied to save you, and it didnt work. I'm sorry."
"But how could you believe me? after all the thousand times i've told you i love you, how could you let one word break your faith in me?"
i didnt answer, i was too shocked to form a rational response.
"i could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that i didnt want you anymore. the most absurd, ridiculous concept - as if there were any way that i could exsis without needing you!"
i was still frozen. his words were incomprehensible, because they were impossible.
he shook my shoulder again, not hard, but enough that my teeth rattled a little.
"bella," he sighed. "really what were you thinking!"
and so i started to cry. the tears welled up abd then gushed miserably down my cheeks.
" i knew it," i sobbed. " i knew i was dreaming."
"you're impossible," he said, and laughed once - a hard laugh, frustrated. "how can i put this so that you'll believe me? you're not asleep, and you're not dead. i'm here, and i love you. i have always loved you, and always will love you. i was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that i was away. when i told you that i didnt want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy."
i shook my head while the tears continued to ooze fro the corners of my eyes.
" you dont believe me do you?" he whispered, his face paler than his usual pale - i could see that even in the dim light. " why can you believe the lie, but not the truth?"
" it never made sense for you to love me," i explained. my voice breaking twice. " i always knew that."


okay the story continues a little then,

i stared at him darkly for a long moment. " the way i feel about you will never change. of course i love you - and there's nothing you can do about it!"
"thats all i needed to hear."


okay, okay, i think ive gone nutty, but that part was way way way sweet.
hahahahahha(:

OH AND THAT WAY FROM NEWMOON BY STEPHENIE MEYER!
copyrighted her(:
i hope i dont get killed for typing her book out,
but its really nice to the max(:
go buy it:D
oh, and someone contribute to the help-flo-buy-eclipse-fund okay(:


tomorrow, tomorrow,
when we'll tell all the truths,
and maybe,
everything will FINALLY be settled
:/