life, FLORENCEified

okayyyyyy.
today was an okay day,
but im feeling, emoey.
hahahaha.
i shall state my thoughts...
i never really felt like i could be,
who i really was,
around you.
so seeing you today.
just made me want to slap your face.
you've become so, so.
i dont know,
i just want to call you a bitch.
but then,
thats only what i and her think.
never really liked you,
now i just hate you.
- - - -
i kinda pity her.
i dont think, you really do see her as your good friend.
she's like some spare tyre for you, my dear.
so stop being an asshole, and using her.
she doesnt deserve you.
- - - -
i wonder, what if, i never met you.
would i still be who i am today?
in some ways, i owe who i am today to you.
and i really want to thank you,
although you never did directly change me.
- - - -
whats with you?
why are you just being horrible?
why why why.
we're not meant to be like this.
i never saw this coming.
never thought, we'd come to this situation.
never expected you to act this way.
and i think about it sometimes.
im trying to forget,
but everyone around me seems to love to remind me,
love to make me question myself,
my actions.
arghhhh.
whats my problem.
i still do so many things, like.
hahahaha, what the heck, i dont know how to say.
hahahaha.
i dont think you care,
so im going to try,
TRY my best and not care,
cause thinking too much about things that arent meant to be thought about,
just isnt worth it.









maths and chem tomorrow
i hope i do well.
HOPE.
life's complicated enough without failing my SCIENCES too add to list of things that make me sad.
mummy's in australia.
brandon cried when she went off.
):
i miss her too.
praying for her safe and lovely return.
love you mum. :D